AJayne's Lemon Tree

I’m realizing now that not only have I left this site abandoned for a little while, but I haven’t really introduced myself or why I am actually doing this at all.

It’s kind of funny. I always considered myself a writer and have been told that I am good at it, but I can never actually figure out what to write about when it comes to nonfiction or talking about my life. It’s like I forget everything interesting about myself whenever I get behind a keyboard. This is my way of forcing myself to face that and open up, who knows maybe this might reach someone who can relate to something.

I don’t really know how to start this, so I guess I’ll just start by introducing myself. I’m Aj, and I care a lot. That sounds stupid as I’m writing it, but it’s really the only way I can explain it. I care about art, the environment, history, people, writing, music, wildlife, helping people, and so much more. To be honest, I wish I could still say that I spend most of my time reading and writing, but I spend a lot of time scrolling now. I hate it. It makes me upset that I have lost my attention span to the internet, but I guess it isn’t that hard to admit knowing that a lot of people are in the same boat.

On that note, this is also my way of getting my attention span back. I want to start reading again and writing. I want to draw more too, even though I suck at it. It’s something that bothers me all the time. Like I feel like I’m a pretty creative person, but I can never just sit there and actually do anything creative. I used to do a lot of photography also. Maybe I’ll get back into that, but I never know what to take photos of or where to go. I love movies, so maybe I’ll watch some, but I never know what kind of movie I am in the mood for, so I just sit there and scroll. And then I get jealous of the people I see out doing all of these things that I want to do, but don’t.

So that is why I’m here. I am going to start doing all of the things I wish I was doing instead of scrolling social media. And this is where I am going to document it. I’ll post my short stories and photography. I’ll post little notes and things that I think are funny. I’ll talk about the books I read recently and the movies I’ve watched. I’ll post about wildlife conservation and maybe even some stories I wrote for my school newspaper. Hey, maybe I’ll even try poetry.